I'm writing this on my BlackBerry because I am not home yet; I am waiting at the bus stop in Brooklyn. And for some reason, I'm not in the best of moods and am on the verge of tears.
My first day back in the NYC office and everything was crazy. I initially started the day on the bright side leaving my apartment feeling rested and in a really good mood. That all quickly changed right after I stepped into the office. And things spiraled downward from there.
Tonight, around 730p, I started talking to a coworker about this project I was thrown on this morning and I started tearing up. The frustration of the day just built up. I thought these crazy days and long work hours were going to be over. Instead I left at 10p making today another 12 hour work day.
I walked from work on 26/Park to 14/8 through a bunch of people leaving the Halloween parade. Walking past some drunk straight guy who yelled "faggot" as I passed didn't help my mood any. The one upbeat moment of the night was running into a Candis Cayne performance at Tour. Her "Thriller" choreography is dead on to the video (no pun intended).
Anyway, its these annoying moods that get me thinking about other stuff, like the recent connection I thought I had in Boston this past week, or how exhausting my job is, how much weight I've lost after all of the hard work of putting it on, and the fact that next week I'll have been single for 3 years. I guess the winter blues are back to haunt me again this year. I'm sure if I went back in blog blog to last year around this time I'd most likely find a similar depressing entry.
Well, hopefully some upcoming trips will take the edge off of this winter blues period. Except I don't think they can come soon enough. I hope I'm not like this through to Thanksgiving. <sigh>
